"Now and then a serious drinker, being dry at the moment says, 'I don't miss it at all. Feel better. Work better. Having a better time.' As ex-problem drinkers, we smile at such a sally. We know our friend is like a boy whistling in the dark to keep up his spirits. He fools himself. Inwardly he would give anything to take half a dozen drinks and get away with them. He will presently try the old game again, for he isn't happy about his sobriety. He cannot picture life without alcohol. Some day he will be unable to imagine life either with alcohol or without it. Then he will know loneliness such as few do. He will be at the jumping off place. He will wish for the end." p. 151-152, Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, 3rd Edition.
To get to the place where one actually likes -- make that loves -- sobriety is the key, I think. To be happy with one's sobriety is to want to keep it and to take action to safeguard and maintain it. There is no longer anything to "get away with". (Susan Lauren)